This time last year I was beginning my first of two student teaching assignments. I was placed in a Pre-K class with one of the BEST teachers I have ever met. To say I was nervous would be an understatement. I was terrified. I always dreamed of being a teacher..specifically in kindergarten or pre-k. So, what if I took all of the classes I needed and passed all of the Virginia State tests to qualify for my teaching license.. only to make it to my student teaching assignment and find out that I don’t love teaching after-all?
Thankfully, that didn’t happen. I LOVED it. After my pre-k assignment, I was placed in an inclusion 5th grade class. I fell in love with that grade as well..although my heart will always be with the lower grades.
Its now back to school week, and as the first-day-of-school photos roll in on social media (I am LOVING seeing all of them!)…I have to admit…I cant help but feel a little torn…Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love being home with my little one. However, there is a part of me that misses being in a classroom something fierce.
That first day of school…the excited yet anxious feeling… the new faces… the different personalities… the hustle and bustle when the dismissal bell rings… watching students light up when they understand something for the first time… new fresh office supplies… ugh! I just love it!
I was not expecting to feel this way AT ALL. I mean, for as long as I can remember, I wanted to stay home with my babies while they were little. Am I crazy? Hormonal? WTF? hahaha
What I am taking away from this feeling is confirmation. I have great confirmation that when the time comes for me to become a working mom (whenever that may be), I will do it with excitement! I know that I’m meant to teach AND I am meant to be a mom!
As for now, I am soaking up every single minute with Audrey. I’m learning all about her little personality and watching her sweet face light up when she learns something new for the first time…I may not have fresh office supplies, but I have cute baby clothes and they happen to smell AMAZING y’all! haha Staying home with her is something I am not taking for granted. Its a major blessing, and I am so unbelievably thankful.
And one day… Derek and I will take her first day of school picture…and who knows… maybe it will be my first day of school too… #helicoptermom 😉